It’s okay to just ask…

If my toddler has taught me anything, it’s that it’s okay to ask for what you want & need.

Prior to Cyrus, I was so scared of being rejected; due to inconvenience, rules, being seen in a way that I didn’t want others to see me, conditioning…I’m sure a combination of all these reasons and maybe more.

This limited me from asking for anything. Needs and wants. I was so scared of not being chosen if I didn’t hear the ‘yes’.

All very valid feelings and reactions.

But you see, toddlers just ask…some times they take. Cyrus asks for whatever he wants and needs every single day. 9 out of 10 times, we really work to accommodate him to some capacity. That last 10% where the ‘no’ lives is actually handled pretty well. I like to think that is because we work so hard to collaborate with him. But maybe it’s a little bit because he knows it’s always safe to ask. That way when the no comes along, it’s not so heavy hitting.

Since the holidays, I’ve just wanted a night off. I always worked it up in my head that I needed a reason for a night off; friend’s birthday party, wedding, etc.

Yesterday morning, I woke up and told Craig, “we need to see if your Mom will take Cy overnight, I just need some rest”. And just like that, I’m writing to you from the couch in a toddler-less home.

It’s okay to ask…for what you want, what you need. It’s okay to ask for just a little bit of quiet when you have no ‘reason’ for it. It’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay receive it too.

When we dropped Cy off yesterday I was telling my MIL how I just wanted to watch TV. She told me the story about how some times when her kids were in school, she would call in sick to work so she could stay home and just do whatever she wanted.

It felt like the perfect confirmation that not only does she see me, she sees us. But that’s it’s really really okay to get your needs met.

<3