How I’m Fine Tuning my Season

It’s been over three months since I’ve last posted and entry. Three months.

Plenty has happened between then and now; mostly things still look the same from the outside, in.

But in my silence I’ve been spending a lot more time fine tuning. This season I’m in. My life.

& I find myself tuning in to a lot more confidence.

This shows up in ways unlike I imagined. Confidence looks a lot less like I thought it would; being the big dog or having an outward personality.

Confidence fits me in how I quietly pour into cups that are closest to me, how I sacrifice moments of time to support those in need. Confidence looks like knowing, firmly, what is a yes in this season without the shadow of guilt or second guessing. I wear my confidence in knowing and honoring the time for rest and when I need to ask for help.

Fine tuning this season, fine tuning my confidence, has welcomed in more stillness and certainty. Instead of filling space and time out of uncertainty, instability and that nagging feeling of ‘should’, I find myself letting spaces and time stay open, staying well attuned.